There's got to be more to life than this

I'm sure everyone goes through the dillema of wondering if the road chosen would lead to a happy ending. I'm no exemption of course, constantly wondering if what I've been doing is what I really want or am I doing it merely to please other people's expectations of myself. It's hard to tell at this time where my heart truly lies, and even if i do have an undying passion for something, what are the chances that it could be turned into reality? Even with all the talk about dreams coming through, I'm beginning to think that it only happens on Disney.

Then I start thinking to myself, why did I, after 13 years of suffering in school, still choose a course that requires so much hard working and painstaking effort? If I genuinely had a passion for it, I guess my choice would be reasonable. I suppose I can say that I'm enjoying what I'm studying, considering I prayed so hard for a place in that faculty. But the question now is, is there something else that I would rather be doing? The answer is without a doubt, yes. Now the other question is, what are the chances of me getting to do it? Hmm..now that's a little more difficult to answer.

20 years from now, I wouldn't want to turn back and regret that I didn't have the courage to pursue my dreams, yet, that's what they are..dreams and probably, but sadly, no more than that. There are so many unanswered questions even within myself..why not take the chance and follow my heart's desire? Since I know I could be good at it, why not? Why work so hard for something which will eventually lead me into an even harder life? How far will my parents disappointment be? God help me.